The Average Life of Me...

New blog

2008-07-28T01:18:00.001+08:00

This blog will be inactive starting today.

New blog will be at : http://blog.byawn-hope.com/

Please relink me. Thanks!

See you at my blog blog!!

Domain

2008-07-23T10:45:00.003+08:00

I will be changing the address of my blog soon...

I've bought a domain for my website. There, I will be setting up sub-domains:

YEP: photos, videos, others
Blog
BEN-Tutorings

Please support my new address soon...

Irritation

2008-07-23T10:28:00.001+08:00

Am i irritating?

I feel very weird that my friends and classmates look at me in a weird way. I have seen that for very long already. I don't know why...

YEP Bonding Camp

2008-07-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

I just came back from YEP Bonding Camp... I had lots of fun, but I have my own sad feelings...

Yesterday, during the sharing session, I was shocked to see/hear that everyone from YEP has gone through a lot of sufferings and grieve. I was deeply saddened by the sharing session. I slept at 4am.

Today, we woke up at 8am and went to the stadium to exercise. Had quite a lot of fun although the group was very tired. Vanessa, Pei Qi, and some of the girls made hard-boiled eggs for breakfast... We waited and waited... The eggs were still raw. So we had those for lunch.

During lunch, we were supposed to pair up. I was paired with Sarali. I had a great time talking to her. I feel relieved talking to her...

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Throughout the camp, I felt happy and good... However, I feel deprived also... I was with Eze and Kenn on Friday night, however, I felt weird, so I slept there earlier... This sense of strangeness... it is weird.

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Photographs and videos will be uploaded soon..

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Well, I've got to sleep... I'm tired.

Nitez!

Looking back

2008-06-29T16:35:00.000+08:00

I've ever thought of giving up my students for quite some time. However, when I think back, I would ask myself, "Why did I start teaching in the first place?"

Last year, I had a Chinese tutor who has always treated me like her son. Once, she asked me if I could teach. Soon, she introduced me to a student whose results were poor, so poor that he only had 13/100 for Mathematics in Primary Two. His parents were so afraid that he would not even pass Primary Two. So eventually, I agreed to tutor him at a minimal sum. Since then, every week, I devoted three hours of my time, apart from my own schoolwork, to tutoring him.

In only three months, which was his SA2, I actually guessed that he would get a borderline pass for his Math SA2, however, I was wrong - terribly wrong. He actually scored a 74/100, which was a mark to 'A'. I was so happy for him. His parents were so happy that they thanked me from the bottom of their hearts. I could just feel how they felt. Since then, I realised that if I can make a difference in people's lives, why not?

That was how I got into tutoring. My friends usually ask how much I earn every month, but I ignored most of them. Now, I am going to reveal how much I earn, not just showing off, but just telling them that with hard work, everything is possible.

So,

when I just started (April 2007) - about $360/month
June 2007 - about $500/month
January 2008 - $800/month
July 2008 - $1000/month

These prices are average. It is subjected to change with the number of weeks, public holidays, and the number of students.

Reflect

2008-06-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING POST MAY NOT BE SUITABLE FOR SOME AUDIENCES. NO HARM, PHYSICAL OR PSYCHOLOGICAL, WERE INTENDED IN THE CONTENTS OF THE POST. INITIALS ARE SOLELY USED TO IDENTIFY PEOPLE, NOT TO PINPOINT THEM.

Today, even though it is the week of my birthday, I know it is supposed to be a happy week, but since the week's coming to an end, I decided to talk about this now instead (this is supposed to be posted tomorrow).

Thinking back at the months that have passed since the year started, I am deeply saddened by the fact that I have to scold and raise my voice every time I teach. I do not remember any class that I did not scold or raise my voice at - not even a single lesson. I really wonder why they like to talk that much. For students who are reading this, please reflect if what I have said in this post is true. If you want, you can also tag your response in the tag box. Thank you.

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P5 Math & Science Students:

I know that it is still quite far from your PSLE. However, please do note that the PSLE is testing knowledge from your P4 work all the way to your P6 work. If you do not work hard now, you will have a hard time revising next year.

It has also come to my attention that you do not pay attention in my class. Some of the excuses that you give are that you have not had had your dinner, or that you are very tired. These excuses are merely covering you up for being lazy in your work. If you already have problems completing some of the simpler questions, how would you manage your problem sums or your future work?

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P6 Math & Science Students:

I know that my P6s are intelligent, each and every one of them have the knowledge and capability to score for their PSLE. Despite this fact, they are still not getting the results. Why?

I believe that it is due to the fact that they have not 'awoken' from their sleep. One fine day, you will 'wake up'. When that happens, you will all make it to the express streams. When will that day be? It all depends on your attitude towards work. Simple as that! One easy way to 'wake' yourself up is to engage school lessons in a positive attitude, that is, to pay attention!

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P5 & P6 English Students:

I have only had one lesson with you but I am already feeling that you are giving up on yourselves. You people no longer have the determination to stand up. You are telling yourself that since I fell, I cannot ever stand up again! This is the wrong attitude to face in life. PSLE or exams are not the only obstacles you need to face in your lifetime. You still have obstacles stopping you in your further education, your career and your marriage. If you stop now, you will be left alone to die. It is just like not treating a big cut on your arm, blood will continue to flow out until you treat it. Similarly, you are NOT going to stand up if you just stay there and wait. You must take action! When? TAKE ACTION NOW!!!

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If you have read up till here, I want to thank you for reading this lengthy essay-style post. However, its not the end yet.

A simple way to improve is to make sure that you understand what your teachers have taught in school and most importantly, ask questions when in doubt. Sometimes, in life, even the most minute questions also need to be answered. It doesn't mean that since the question is so insignificant, you do not answer it. We call this the 'snowball effect'. This effect has the same principle as making a snowball. Small questions, when they come together, make big questions. The 'snowball' will get bigger and bigger until you solve the root(s) of the questions. This applies to all of my students and students/adults everywhere.

I want all my students to excel! In order to do that, I have devoted most of my time into teaching as I believe that everyone has the ability to score and excel, no one is an exception. However, one hand cannot clap. I also need you to help me fulfill my dream and also you need the opportunity to be guided to excel.

I hope that this lengthy post have already put you deep into thoughts.

- What do you want when you grow up?
- What do you want to achieve in life?
- Do you want to be the CEO or boss of a company or do you want to be a beggar on the streets?
- Do you want your parents to be proud of you, or ashamed of you?

Finally, I would like to give you a quote from the Bible:

Take Time: Take time to think-
It is the source of all power. Take time to read- It is the fountain of wisdom.
Take time to play- It is the source of perpetual youth. Take time to be quiet- It is the opportunity to seek God.
Take time to be aware- It is the opportunity to help others. Take time to love and be loved- It is God’s greatest gift.
Take time to laugh- It is the music of the soul. Take time to be friendly- It is the road to happiness.
Take time to dream- It is what the future is made of. Take time to pray- It is the greatest power on earth.
Take time to give- It is too short a day to be selfish. Take time to work- It is the price of success. There is a time for everything. . . .
[Ecclesiastes 3:1-8]

There is a time for everything. What time is it for now?

Benjamin Lee WY
Dip. Psychology & Community Services

reflection

2008-06-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

reflecting at this week, i have been a little emo, due to my class. I need friends desperately. Or am I invisible? Everyone is ignoring me, especially *******? Is that a birthday surprise all the way from the start? I don't know but he/she is still ignoring me...

Out of the blue i was feeling blue,
like the murky waters of the dark night,
dark and mysterious, it came to me;
infesting me with emo thoughts...

oh what have i done?
is it me or is it really true?
i am engulfed with fear and distress,
what have happened to me, or has something happened to them?

the dark murky waters took me by surprise,
and a drop of tears drip into the murky waters,
now i'm surprised!

The dark murky waters...
how mysterious, but how powerful

2008-06-26T22:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, my classmates celebrated my birthday...

today, my classmates celebrated my birthday AGAIN, together with 3 others... so does that mean i grew 2 years in two days? LOL!

anyways, today's Psychology lesson is cool. i totally enjoyed it!!

just finished my famres book review, and i am so tired... bye

B'Dae

2008-06-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me...
Happy birthday to me...
happpy birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeeee......'
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wee... I am now 17...

finally...

2008-06-22T23:14:00.001+08:00

today, i finally completed my psychology essay... its a bloody 1500 words... drained out of my brain juices... i need a rest...

CT; Narnia

2008-06-02T22:30:00.002+08:00

came back a few hours ago from the class movie... NARNIA IS SO NICE!!!!! Woot!

Anyway, todays tests were like...never mind...

a well deserved rest now!!! BYE!!!

Zzzz...

english;presentation;ctweek

2008-05-30T21:57:00.001+08:00

Hello...

I know its been long since i have been blogging... but so much things have happened...

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Ms Jenny, my employer, have asked me to teach P4, 5 and 6 English tuition as she is going to sack Mr John, due to his behavior. He has been screaming and shouting to my poor students and I know how it feels, trust me. Actually, I pity them a lot, especially, Gerald and Robin. I do not know what's wrong with him but he sure is a crazy old man... he shouts all sorts of nonsensical vulgarities to these students out of the blue...

To my students: FEAR NOT!!! I WILL BE TEACHING YOU FROM JUNE ONWARDS!!! BEWARE TOO!!! xD

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yesterday was my ITABS and INTPSY presentation. was a little crappy as i forgot what i was supposed to say... lol... anyway, it went off quite well. everyone was dressed very smart too!! hahaz... WATCHING NARNIA: PRINCE CASPIAN ON MONDAY!!!! Wheeeee!!

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Next week is common test ~~week~~ day... lol... my course only have 1 day of common test (monday) then after that is holiday for 2 weeks... so we have like 3 weeks of holidays instead to 2... YES!!!

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Anyway that's all for today... Byez!!!

2008-05-07T12:17:00.000+08:00

loneliness fills me...

3rd day

2008-04-16T19:43:00.000+08:00

today was a slacking day...

went to np for my IT module... tauught us how to use powerpoint lol... the lecturer was so bloody forgetful, even though he is only 27!!! LOL!!!

nothing much to blog about... sorry

2nd day

2008-04-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

today is the 2nd day of poly life... getting used to it already... mrt-ing from amk to clementi then bus-ing from clementi to np... lol... had to stand all the way...

anyway, today, me, ken, zi yang, naiimah went to sign up for CCAs and yes with an "s". we signed up for rotaract club, hi club, the youth alliance(tya). Naiimah signed up for 6 lol...

when i reached home, i signed up for "npsu challengers", even though the website looks dubious. LOL!!

well, i am very tired now so ta ta....

1st day. new beginning

2008-04-14T21:34:00.000+08:00

I know i haven't been blogging... i know...

anyway today is the first day of school... lol and i was late for my 1st lecture. it will intro to Community Services... sounds cool but think of it, what theories are there in community service, isn't it just practical??? well, i may know the answer in the following lectures to come...

guess what?! all tutorials are cancelled lol!!!

i met three of my foc friends, ken, ezekiel and zi yang, and wow they ARE in my class... SAME CLASS ALL THE WAY (other than IS Modules)...

first day was fun...

Kane's wrath

2008-03-31T17:39:00.002+08:00

Haha, i've finished playing the game... lol

so fast...

anyways, today i went to play sangokushi taisen again... 1 gold card, 1 silver card and the rest are blacks and whites...

then i went to aunt's to do my hair... Lol...just came back.

i am so bloody pissed with O2Jam... Web DB query error... WHY?????!!!!!!!

SMS

2008-03-31T08:37:00.000+08:00

NOTICE

For those people who smsed me between 26 - 29 March 2008:

Please re-sms me, as due to my stupidity and itchy hands, i couldn't receive your sms(es). Sorry for the inconvenience caused. xD

C&C3:KW

2008-03-25T09:26:00.001+08:00

Yes!!! Its released. Got the game already.

nth to blog about, so bye, go play the game le...

less than a day

2008-03-23T17:37:00.001+08:00

About 23 hours to launch. I have did some bookings for C&C3 - KW...

very excited now....

5 days

2008-03-18T13:50:00.003+08:00

HAHA!!! there is still 5 days before the release of C&C3: Kane's Wrath Razer DeathAdder Mouse bundle... this post is to blog more about the game and the mouse.

Command & Conquer 3: Kane's Wrath (taken from C&C3:KW Official Website)

Unprecedented Multi-decade Campaign - Kane returns as the centerpiece of an epic new single-player campaign. Experience a new story that spans 20 years – from the rebirth of the Brotherhood of Nod after the Second Tiberium War through the dramatic events of the Third Tiberium War and beyond. Facilitate the rise of the Brotherhood leading up to and beyond the events of Command & Conquer 3 Tiberium Wars.

Global Conquest – Fight the Third Tiberium War your way. Take command in an all new global conquest mode. Position your forces on a strategic level and then wage conflict in the fast, fluid, furious, tactical gameplay that Command & Conquer pioneered. Map out your strategies on the planetary level and wage all-out war on the ground. This marks the debut of an RTS meta-game on a console.

Live-Action Videos are back! - Witness the rise of the Brotherhood first hand through intense live action video sequences starring Joe Kucan, the actor who originated the role of Kane in the Command & Conquer series in addition to a new celebrity cast of characters

Introduction of new Epic-Units – Devastate the battlefield with the immense firepower of all-new Epic-units. Customize your Epic-Units mid-battle via garrisoning and upgrades. Position these units in the strategic, global conquest mode then lay siege to your enemy at the tactical, battle level.

Take Command of a Whole New Army – With the introduction of new units, structures, and abilities to each of the three factions, the Tiberium Wars will never be the same. Conquer your enemies with new units on both land and air.

Specialized Sub-factions - Play to your strengths with six unique sub-factions, each equipped with their own exclusive units, powers, and upgrades. Utilize the sub-faction of your choice to fully take advantage and compliment your play style.

Revolutionary New Xbox 360 Interface – The all-new Command Stick brings console RTS controls to the next level. Build, deploy, and attack with an all-new radial interface formulated specifically for console gamers. Console RTS gaming will be revolutionized yet again!

Trailers (From YouTube)

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Razer™ DeathAdder Mouse (From Razerzone)

* 1800dpi Razer Precision™ 3G infrared sensor
* Ergonomic right-handed design
* 1000Hz Ultrapolling™ / 1ms response
* Five independently programmable Hyperesponse™ buttons
* On-The-Fly Sensitivity™ adjustment
* Always-On™ mode
* Ultra-large non-slip buttons
* 16-bit ultra-wide data path
* 6400 frames per second (5.8 megapixels per second)
* 60–120 inches per second and 15g of acceleration
* Zero-acoustic Ultraslick™ Teflon feet
* Gold-plated USB connector
* Seven-foot, lightweight, non-tangle cord
* Approximate size: 128mm (length) x 70mm (width) x 42.5mm (height)

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the mouse costs $89 itself. the game costs $79.90 itself.

do the math yourself. even a dodo knows which is more worth it - the game, the mouse or the bundle...

Note: All products seen here are copyrighted by the respective companies. All videos are copyrighted by the uploader(s) and/or other parties.

NP.BBQ

2008-03-18T00:47:00.001+08:00

hi.

today i went to J8 to meet Bjorn to go to NP to install our software. For my course, Photoshop CS2 and Web Standard was needed. LOL!! i had all of them already but i reinstalled both of them... anyway the people there was pathetic... they installed my web standard then reinstalled it again for the second time... it is so pathetic.... anyway, after installing the softwares, we went to get a drink... and guess what, we can talk from can drinks to cutting our hair... lol... no link at all. oh yes, on the way to the building to get our software we met up with mabel at the convention center for a while, chatted a little.

FUJITSU REVOLUTION!!!!! at np we saw almost 20+ people with FUJITSU laptops lol... so bloody funny and irritating.

while waiting for the software to be installed we crapped a lot... i was telling Bjorn that Adobe CS3 actually meant "Any Disgusting Or Bewildering Entertainment - Call Someone 3 times"... LOL

after that we took a bus home. i walked around amk hub then went to joanne's house to 'peng kang'(BBQ) stuff lol... we bbq-ed udon, mushroom and lots of chicken and sotong... all of them was delicious... stayed to watch the 9pm show on channel 8... then left. Joanne offered to see me to the bus stop, when we are about to reach, i asked if she wanted to go home now. she said she was afraid of cockroaches so i decided to see her back home lol... she went back in, leaving ME to lock HER gate... lol... and there was a possibility of getting bitten by her 2 insane dogs... and another big dog looked at me... lol

well gtg sleep already... What A Day!!!

RIP - PC, incident on mrt

2008-03-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

BP: 30/85
Heartbeats/min: ~50

This........may be ......... my last post................ with this...............computer............it .................is ..................... dying...................... on......................me .......................Rest .........in .........................peace ..........

In loving memory of my going too be spoilt pc

1999 - 2008

Specifications:

2.4 GHz Intel Pentium 4 (733 MHz)
2GB RAM
Nvidia GeForce 7600 GT
100 GB SATA Harddisk
MSI CD/DVD Reader + CD Burner combo (bought in Taiwan)

etc...

May you rest in peace.

Haiz, in 2 years, first was my mouse, then now my whole pc... i will always remember the fun times i had playing pc games with you...

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Such a funny day this week, apart from rainy days. i saw a guy on the mrt on thursday after teaching my P5s... he was carrying a FX Creations bag and dozing off...

Today, after teaching my P6s, i saw him again, on the SAME mrt, He and I was seating at the EXACT SAME SEATS ON THE SAME MRT CABIN!!! WOW! What coincidence... like on thursday, he was dozing off... i am shocked at how small Singapore is, i can actually meet a stranger 2 times in a week...

anyways, as you have read, this may be the last post typed with this computer of mine. will update you on its latest development... (actuallly a new pc sounds nice as i have been using this pc since 1999. Talk about Ancient!)

I'm not being mean but i really wish to have a new pc...

okay, gotta get back to back-upping my whole drive... got 5 drives to be exact... i've completed 2 only....

updates.sgksts.id4.np

2008-03-11T11:26:00.002+08:00

didn't blog for so long...

i've decided not to buy 'Spore' as i found out is is just like 'the Sims'.... instead i've added 'C&C3: Kane's Wrath bundle', 'Starcraft 2' and 'Romance of the Three Kingdoms Online' into my to-buy-list...

i'm going to repair my motorola z3 later... and i believe it will cost a bomb... anyways, life is boring... nothing to do at home... poly pls start earlier... i am bored to death....

ytd went to play sangokushi taisen 2 at the arcade. spent about $17 on it, got lots of white cards and 2 silver cards... i am so unlucky, as i have no $ left, i let yun rong use my machine, his 1st card is the GOLD CARD!!! very pissed lol...

anyway i spent another $3 on initial d 4... finally completed the ironhazaka map.lol...

ytd night received 2 letters from np - 1 principal's message and 1 from students' union. the principal's message was just plain talk... the students' union one is about the freshman's camp which i am not going... feels stupid... then got another one which is asking me to take another course... i've taken jap lol!!

well got to go le... blog soon...

Medical Check up

2008-03-02T17:14:00.002+08:00

BBQ yesterday ended at 11.45pm...no more bus service, so we, bjorn, juin rong, yun rong and me, took a cab home... cost about $19...reached home at about 12.30am

today, i read the enrollment package which i received yesterday. it was on how to register for my poly... i was required to take a medical examination to certify that i am ok... passed it... tmr going for x ray... i have no idea why i need an examination... lol but got it done anyway... cost $36...

also i did some calculations and found out that taking the mrt to clementi mrt station then take a shuttle bus to NP is the cheapest and fastest way, approx. 1 hour 15 minutes travel time. will cost about $60++ per month, so buying concession pass for mrt cos its cheaper...

anyway, tmr will be a busy day. need to go posb do some things, then to ocbc to pay my poly semester fees. then take passport photos for my new tertiary ez-link card and student card. then go plaza singapura to service my Motorola Rizr Z3...

busy day ahead... till next time...

New Chapter

2008-02-28T00:05:00.002+08:00

After a long month, CNY, Valentine's day and also renovating the blog, its near the end already. The blog's up as you can see. However, you not be able to access the profile, links and tagboard yet. Sorry about that. Will fix it asap...

This marks a new chapter of my life and my blog...

Starting poly in april...in case you haven't know, i got into Ngee Ann Polytechnic's Diploma in Psychology And Community Services. I am thrilled as there are only 80 spaces up for grabs and i actually got it!!!

Also, BEN Tutorings is also starting,and i mean it, to pick up. Have only 3 1-to-1 students and 2 group tuitions, and a new teacher, Bjorn Teo!!!

Come Saturday, there will be a class BBQ at East Coast... LOL...

well,i'll update later... its very late...

50th post

2008-01-20T14:27:00.000+08:00

Yes!!! Its my 50th post...finally...

anyways i've watched a VCD named "Sorry, Teacher".

This movie is about a teacher, Ms Tan, who is diagnosed with terminal cancer but yet postpones her treatment just for her students, who were lazy and rebellious. Eventually, her she dies from a road accident, in place of her students.

I was very touched by this movie... I can see how she really dedicates her life to educating her students, who are from the worst class. I was really touched and teared.

This movie was superb, i'd say, as students often do not think of how their teachers sacrifice and this movie is just like its being dedicated to the teachers who have dedicated their time and effort, or their life, in this case, "to mould the future of Singapore", as the mission of the MOE.

Here's a quote from the movie:

“教师是一个冒险、甚至是危险的职业，伟人与罪人，都可能在他手中形成；因此，教师必须如薄冰，尽最大的努力，让自己和自己的学生，走向崇高。”

In English, it roughly means:

"Being a teacher may be dangerous, both the noble and the sinful are formed here. Thus, a teacher must be hardworking, so that he/she and his/her students will be successful."

Interesting movie... a must watch!

Wii

2008-01-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

I am sooo excited today...

Why?????

Cos i'm getting a wii today for $728...

the package includes:

- The console (duh!!)

- 3 bundled game(Avatar,Dragon Blade & Battalion Wars 2) + 1 "Wii Sports" game + 1 free game (Trauma Center: New Blood) = 5 GAMES!!!!!

- 1 Nunchuk + 1 Controller which looks like a remote (duh!!)

- 1 Sensor pad for sensing the controllers (duh!!!)

If I calculate correctly, I saved $150 for this deal.... lols... buying it at 8pm today at Fun Centre (AMK Hub Lvl 2).... Woot...

Anyways the "Trauma Center: New Blood" is a simulation game. I be the surgeon and open up ppl's body and do some operation...lols... sounds gross but i will be playing it cos it is soooo bloody cool(literally)... Gamespot gave it a 8/10... the store gave it a 4/5... and i give it 9/10..... WOOOOT!!!!!!

very excited... hahaz

Bye xD

Happy 2008

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Yes, its the 1st post of 2008.... 2007 has been relatively good... i hope that 2008 will be even better!!! woot

new year, new beginning...

happy new year!!

W960i !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-16T16:17:00.000+08:00

WooHoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You better watch out,
You better not cry,
You better not pout,
I'm telling you why:
double-u(W) nine six zero is out!!!!!!!!

lols...

yes you've heard it right.... my dream phone is out!!!!!

the W960i - sony ericsson's latest phone.

with a 2.6 inch touchscreen screen and 8GB of memory... as compared to my O2 i'm using now, its far better.

my O2's getting old... and awfully slooooooooooooow!!! seems as if its gonna die anytime...got its funeral ready le... quite simple actually - SELL IT or THROW IT!!! bwahahahaha....

however, its price is awesome too.... SGD$918 without contract... @.@ its like my 2-month's pay!!!

i wish that santa's(you) could gimme that as a gift for christmas.... i'd be lovely... xD (you can see that i am joking, but if you wanna buy it for me, don't blame me if you are bankrupt... lolZ)

let's back to daydreaming on my dream phone...

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hahaz

Busy Day Bentutorings

2007-12-14T18:58:00.000+08:00

Wow... Its been such a busy week.

I've been busy working on the Ben Tutorings website.... and guess what, its FLASH ENABLED!!! to visit the page, go to the links section of my blog and click on the logo.

anyways, i am also recruiting tutors. if you are interested please e-mail me at leefm@singnet.com.sg ONLY. hotmail and gmail not supported :).

School... colour

2007-11-16T15:21:00.001+08:00

Today i went to school for some crap briefing... it was about PAE... which was for jc, not interested...

spent about half an hour there...

after the briefing, i went to rebond and highlight my hair in preparation for prom night. joanne was with me too... we had fun laughing at each other and talking...

i've just reached home and it is time to save the world at Hellgate: London...

so long lvl 6 nia....

saddening.... T.T

Game... old n new

2007-11-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

Today, i finished two of my long-on-hold games, Call Of Duty 4: Modern Warfare and Age of Empires 3: The Asian Dynasties. It is so cool to complete two games in a day.

After that i felt bored, so i went out to look for more games.

After much consideration,i bought Hellgate: London for $75...

Inside the collector's edition pack, there is a iron-on patch. i liked it so i ironed it on my crumpler. The sad thing is that i forgot that thread melts under extreme heat, therefore my patch was 'disfigured'... desperately, i thought of ways to save it...

"Buy another collector's edition?"

"Forget it?"

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Finally, i decided to sew the thread back myself... and wow it took me like 2 hours...

finally it was done... i managed to save it.

since i ironed it before, the patch cannot be ironed on again... sadly, i had to sew it on my crumpler manually... hard work!!!!

at about 11pm it was done... yes, finally the patch is on my crumpler...

wth...

Zzzzz.......

The end

2007-11-13T14:16:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting for this day...

For today is the day where...

O LEVEL ENDS!!!!! Woohoo!!!!!!!!

Finished my biology paper... so happy...

Preparation for prom night just begun.

vids 2

2007-10-18T15:54:00.000+08:00

Here's some funny videos to let you relax... for a while...

laser level - what happens when technology gets too advanced

True Friends - Beautiful Animals and People Together

Photoshopped animals

1st day: Science Prac

2007-10-18T15:30:00.000+08:00

hellos.... i'm back from the O level science practical...

and omg was it easy... (but gotta mistake)

instead of zinc carbonate, i wrote calcium carbonate.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, to all 4I students: Photos on graduation day is released on my Flickr site. Thank you Elena for the photos. If you have more photos to share with the class, please e-mail me @ leefm@singnet.com.sg.

Now how to get there?

1. Look at the left of the post to find red words saying: "New way to get my photos...click here".

2. Click the word "here".

3. This will bring you to my Flickr site.

4. Look at the right hand side, you should see one folder named "Graduation". Click on it and there you have it! Feel free to get the photos.

Graduation

2007-10-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of school...

now on we are on our own...

studying...

playing... (wth, Os are near)

and i will always remember the friends i have during these days, especially one whom i knew for 12 years...

anyway, i went home quite early and surfed the net for wierd things...

i found this:

I need him... You need him... We all need him... but whose gonna be the him in the video???

well, i'll be getting enhancing the video which my class watched in the I&E Studio... Gonna hand that to everyone during the prom night or maybe earlier... it depends on my mood... xD

anyway the video is a compilation of photos of our class... it was very meaningful...

Happy Graduation!!!!!!!

well gtg, i have a class dinner to attend...

cya

生活有起有落。。。

2007-09-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

生活有起有落，
可是我的生命有落无起。

生命是脆弱的，
我的心也是脆弱的。。。

这样的生活，
要怎么活下去？

oharida ....

...

chirie...

wagashiwa...

chuushin desu...

...

another episode...

2007-09-26T20:58:00.000+08:00

it has been quite a while since i last blogged... probably due to the prelims and the incoming O levels...it is perhaps due to this that my blog seems dead... no counts for the past days... lols... i won't blame you all, since this blog is for my own journal only...

today is the debut of yet another episode of family matters... here is benjamin reporting live from the scene... xD

***

as i am typing this post, my family is still quarreling... at 9.50pm today, my family has been having a war - a war of words....

screaming and shouting with each other, a new party just joined in... My grandmother and my brother has been fighting since day one, this new party is none other than... MY DAD!!!

he has started the 'war' as he is fed up of my grandmother saying 没母亲教 it has been so long since she started saying that but it is only till today that he is taking extreme measures...

it seems that the war will not stop soon... before i am seen, i better leave...

Benjamin Lee, reporting live at my house...

***

lols... anyway the above is true...

stay tuned???

Blabberings

2007-09-16T13:38:00.000+08:00

Today is the 2nd month since i bought my psp...

Today is the 11th month since i started this blog...

Today is the first day of the week since prelims ended...

Today is the day... where i continued blogging... lols

Well, sorry for not blogging for so long. i've been busy since prelims are going on... i've made a few adjustments to my blog:

1. deleted some photos as ppl complain my blog loads slowly.
2. added my blog's logo.
3. added some new photos.
4. relinked ppl and added new links.
5. some bug fixes.

and i will be working on a new skin after my 'o's... hehe... since this skin is about half a year old.

Recently, i've received a new student... P2... i'd be teaching him math and english...

with that, i've made a logo for my tutoring services. it's called Ben Tutorings. lame hor? xD

Made 2 business cards for fun... lol... just in case ppl want it.(i believe nobody would)...

tmr is a holiday for our school. not sure of what crap reason though...

but its 1 month to 'O's and i am still not mugging yet. not sure when i will start but i'll let nature take its course.

to my P6 students reading this: 20 days to PSLE... START MUGGING!! START WAKING UP!!!
to my P5 students reading this: 2 months to end of year exams... \

to my friends: HAPPY MUGGING!!! :)
for happy go lucky ones: Hi-5 man!!!

hehez..cya all soon

She cares?

2007-08-04T11:32:00.000+08:00

i was very pissed for no apparent reason yesterday...

guess its my mood swing again...

sorry if i've scared you all...

and i hope i'd get better...

today she smsed me...

asking me why i was angry...

i didn't tell her...

i just couldn't say...

when i saw her sms...

i was so delighted...

she cared for me?...

or hinting something else?...

i was happy...

and thus cheered up...

sounds poetic??? my god... cannot believe it... i actually wrote the crap above???

Family ties

2007-07-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

Note: Some Coarse Language Used

sniff...

today was such a disappointing day of my entire life...

i went to tuition as usual today, at 3pm i went to meet my mum. i reached home at 7.30pm and because of that, my dad became angry. he sent me this message:

"If you like go stay with her and never come back. Don't call me dad."

i was shocked. i've been out with my mum every saturday ever since i could remember... and now this?

i went to bathe... he sent me 3 other messages:

1 - "are you home yet?"
2 - "SO YOU WANT TO REPLY MY MESSAGES RIGHT!!!"
3 - "you are on your own from today onwards."

i've only seen these messages when i was out. i replied, saying that i was bathing... but he never replied.

at about 8.30pm, he came back, with his black and f**king face. we have not talked since.

at 11pm, after watching channel u, i went back to my room, getting ready to sleep... i found these wet laundry hung in my bed, and the floor was wet. i asked my grandma who washed those. she replied, with her 'qian da' face, "I dunno!" so i went to spin dry those laundry. she came to 'help', like the usual busybody she is. she mumbled about her mistake to have agreed my dad to take care of us...

i went back to my room, typing this entry. she is still watching me... and she followed me... my grandpa came too, also showing his 'you owe me money' face... and poking his nose at what happened (which was me blogging)...

this situation happens almost everyday of my life... can i have a real family???

why can't i go out with m y mum??? she IS my biological mum and nothing can replace that. dad have been okay with it, they fought custody of me and my bro, my dad won but he agreed in court to let her meet me and my bro every saturday for the whole day. the judge accepted the request. as years come by, my time with my mum has shortened. school, tuition, events just have to come on saturdays... now my day and grandma is somehow protesting over me meeting my mum. is this even logical??? i have grown up and need my own privacy and space. forbidding me to meet my mum is just... oh forget it, you all wouldn't understand how i feel now... the mixture of anger, sadness, disappointment and confusion...

life would not be so great without my dad... my handphone, my laptop, my education... but life would also be dull without my mother... my listening ear and comfort... i like being with my mum, the sense of warmth and motherly love... yet i can feel it only on saturdays... i can only talk about my sadness and happiness with my mum... as for my dad, he does not understand me... to be exact, my WHOLE family do not understand me... they only perceive me and that's it... they do not find out anything else about me... other than ~~telling~~ ordering me to do this do that... decisions are often done by my dad and i cannot do anything about it.

as a teen, family support is important... yet with this kind of family, how can get this support?

in school, although i have friends, the numbers are minute... only a few true friends... i am being teased that i look pale... although you all can laugh about it and i laugh with you, as if i don't mind and take it as a joke, i feel a sense of depression within me... why am i born like this????

being in this family makes me feel utterly disappointed.....

does my life end here??????

can i end here?

can i vanish????

can i ....

tuition

2007-07-14T16:36:00.000+08:00

3 posts on 3 saturdays... woot lol

today went to teach... looked at the time and thoughyt that i was late by 5 mins... was so paiseh... but when i reached the place, i was actually early by 5 mins... lols, which means that my watch is actually fast by that much...

anyway as some of you have seen, my tutees were pathetically weak... the lowest mark was actually 9/80 and the highest 44/80... cools eh? what more, they are p6 and will be sitting for psle in two to three months time... dunno what to do man...

while marking the papers, i was actually very pek chek... i hardly ticked and questions, all was cross, cross and more cross....

X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X X

boy oh boy... anyway i did not meet up with my mum today, she went to pray and i thought it would be very boring, so i decided not to meet her...

how difficult is it that i could see my mum only once a week....

haiz...

sorry

2007-07-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

i am so tired

went to teach again... p5s today...

nothing much to write about...

when i went home at 9 plus, i smsed joanne to ask her to chat with me, but she didn't reply. so i decided to sms cindy... to tell her i'm sorry.

i did something to her this morning during physics prac lesson, and then in bio prac lesson.

i apologised. she didn't reply... i feel sad and reprimanded myself for doing this to her...

P.S to Cindy: i am really sorry... i shouldn't have done that to you... i am so so so sorry...

a kind deed

2007-07-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

today went to teach as usual...

then i went to meet my mum at bukit batok. it was almost an hour ride. very bored.
then we had lunch, a very late lunch, then as we left for the mrt station after lunch, and some shopping, we found an atm card at the axs machine...

we discussed what we should do, take it and go or take it and return to the bank?

finally, after 15 minutes, we decided to take it to the bank. poor thing however, the bank was closed, so we dropped it into the cheque deposit bin... lolz... i found it wierd...

after that, i accopanied her to shop then finally left for home at about 5.30pm.

a wierd incident that happened. the person was blur enough to put in the atm card and forget to take it out...

it was useless if we took it anyway, no pin cannot get money... lolz...

just remembered... LIVE EARTH!!!!

tuition of another kind

2007-06-30T18:10:00.000+08:00

helloz... its time for me to update my post before ppl throw eggs at me...

today i went to tuition, but its a different one... i went there to teach and not to be taught... lolz...

yes i am working as a part time teacher now, teaching primary school math and science... my tuition teacher introdeced the students to me and i thought i'd give it a go... actually its quite fun,ya know... you'll fell superior than your students... then you will feel so good, firstly,you are earning money yourself. secondly, you feel good helping others who are intellectually declined than you... xP

i am now earning about $XX per hour, and with 8 lessons it will add up to $XXX... cant tell ya... ask me if you are desperate to know... wells, its been a boring week actually, not much lessons... mr ang is going for a minor operation and most of his lessons became free lessons... starting next week, there will be a relief teacher, maybe trainee, to teach us... hope he/she is not so bad... like our bio last year, every week one new teacher so we had about seven bio teachers last year... cool eh? xD

well i've been more cheerful lately, i am not sure why but isn't it better... i am now less emo.

BEGONE EMOTISM!!!!!!!!!! Xp

The world against me

2007-06-10T14:14:00.000+08:00

Hello... its the starting of the third week of the june holidays... and things are not going as smooth as i expected.

last week i got a new laptop for my b'dae... in advance. my brother also had a new computer. i am not pleased with it b'cos its just not fair - he could get a gift on MY b'dae and when his b'dae comes, i cannot get anything... moveover, his b'dae is like the end of the year... this is terribly not fair...now i believe that nothing in the world is fair... my dad promised me a new graphic card ever since my old gone 'died' last year... frrom then i've been running my pc with an integrated one... which is practically useless... playing maple lags due to the graphic card... just imagine, even this 2d game lags... what sould i expect from a 3d game... i've tried it... lags like shit or will not ever start... oh boy, when can i get a new graphic card?

now i'd just wish that someone will give a graphic card for my b'dae...

oh yes... just remembered... my b'dae is two weeks away...

guess its not going to be a good one...

Respect

2007-05-18T13:55:00.000+08:00

THE FOLLOWING POST IS RATED 'PG'.
THE EXAMPLES STATED MIGHT BE FICTIONAL.IF THE SITUATION IS OF ANY RESEMBLANCE, IT MIGHT MERELY BE COINCIDENCE. THIS POST IS TO EDUCATE NOT TO PIN-POINT AT ANYONE.
~~Note: If you still think that it is about you, sorry, but I have no rights to change your mind. Afterall, you control what you think.~~

taken from http://plato.stanford.edu/entries/respect/

Respect
First published Wed Sep 10, 2003; substantive revision Tue Jan 2, 2007

Respect has great importance in everyday life. As children we are taught (one hopes) to respect our parents, teachers, and elders, school rules and traffic laws, family and cultural traditions, other people's feelings and rights, our country's flag and leaders, the truth and people's differing opinions. And we come to value respect for such things; when we're older, we may shake our heads (or fists) at people who seem not to have learned to respect them. We develop great respect for people we consider exemplary and lose respect for those we discover to be clay-footed, and so we may try to respect only those who are truly worthy of our respect. We may also come to believe that, at some level, all people are worthy of respect. We may learn that jobs and relationships become unbearable if we receive no respect in them; in certain social milieus we may learn the price of disrespect if we violate the street law: “Diss me, and you die.” Calls to respect this or that are increasingly part of public life: environmentalists exhort us to respect nature, foes of abortion and capital punishment insist on respect for human life, members of racial and ethnic minorities and those discriminated against because of their gender, sexual orientation, age, religious beliefs, or economic status demand respect both as social and moral equals and for their cultural differences. And it is widely acknowledged that public debates about such demands should take place under terms of mutual respect. We may learn both that our lives together go better when we respect the things that deserve to be respected and that we should respect some things independently of considerations of how our lives would go.

We may also learn that how our lives go depends every bit as much on whether we respect ourselves. The value of self-respect may be something we can take for granted, or we may discover how very important it is when our self-respect is threatened, or we lose it and have to work to regain it, or we have to struggle to develop or maintain it in a hostile environment. Some people find that finally being able to respect themselves is what matters most about getting off welfare, kicking a disgusting habit, or defending something they value; others, sadly, discover that life is no longer worth living if self-respect is irretrievably lost. It is part of everyday wisdom that respect and self-respect are deeply connected, that it is difficult if not impossible both to respect others if we don't respect ourselves and to respect ourselves if others don't respect us. It is increasingly part of political wisdom both that unjust social institutions can devastatingly damage self-respect and that robust and resilient self-respect can be a potent force in struggles against injustice.

The ubiquity and significance of respect and self-respect in everyday life largely explains why philosophers, particularly in moral and political philosophy, have been interested in these two concepts. They turn up in a multiplicity of philosophical contexts, including discussions of justice and equality, injustice and oppression, autonomy and agency, moral and political rights and duties, moral motivation and moral development, cultural diversity and toleration, punishment and political violence. The concepts are also invoked in bioethics, environmental ethics, business ethics, workplace ethics, and a host of other applied ethics contexts. Although a wide variety of things are said to deserve respect, contemporary philosophical interest in respect has overwhelmingly been focused on respect for persons, the idea that all persons should be treated with respect simply because they are persons. Respect for persons is a central concept in many ethical theories; some theories treat it as the very essence of morality and the foundation of all other moral duties and obligations. This focus owes much to the 18th century German philosopher, Immanuel Kant, who argued that all and only persons (i.e., rational autonomous agents) and the moral law they autonomously legislate are appropriate objects of the morally most significant attitude of respect. Although honor, esteem, and prudential regard played important roles in moral and political theories before him, Kant was the first major Western philosopher to put respect for persons, including oneself as a person, at the very center of moral theory, and his insistence that persons are ends in themselves with an absolute dignity who must always be respected has become a core ideal of modern humanism and political liberalism. In recent years many people have argued that moral respect ought also to be extended to things other than persons, such as nonhuman living things and the natural environment.

Despite the widespread acknowledgement of the importance of respect and self-respect in moral and political life and theory, there is no settled agreement in either everyday thinking or philosophical discussion about such issues as how to understand the concepts, what the appropriate objects of respect are, what is involved in respecting various objects, what the conditions are for self-respect, and what the scope is of any moral requirements regarding respect and self-respect.

Other links related to this topic: Wikipedia

field trip - jurong island

2007-05-17T19:42:00.000+08:00

hello... pardon my OMGs....

anyway... went to jurong island today... it is magnificent... in the sense that you will not see anything like this mainland... however too bad cannot take photos of it...

learnt lots of things about petrol... oil to be exact...

well i attempted to copy down the world of chemistry banner but failed... terribly... it is simply almost incredible... i spent about 1/2 hr copying and i've only copied a little less than half about 48% i'd guess... well anyway, i had fun...

have fun always.... xp

omg

2007-05-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

omg i cannot believe it... ni ta is NOT the president..... it is hwee joo.... omg omg omg omg omg.....

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-14T17:15:00.000+08:00

hello... it has been a tough day today... i went to school and my gosh... chair and vice chair is absent.. then as i m next in line, i had to attend all the meetings with the teachers and also to collect some things... my isn't it bad enough.

well anyways... i got back some of the results today... lets talk about them one by one.

A Math
hmm... failed...33/100.... haiz.... its typical... used to it. 17 in class failed... that's more than half.

E Math
now this i passed...62/100... heheh... i did not expect this but oh well...

Physics
i passed...56/100... some careless mistakes... shouldn't have made them... but what's done is done...

English
only got back paper 1 part 2... 15/30... now this is a very strict writing i'd guess... i did not add extra details...

History
passed...forgot the marks but hey... ~~is it that important~~?

SS
passed by 1 mark... very lucky... i could actually get higher but due to my misinterpretation of the word 'pragmatism', i got the whole essay from 8 marks to 6 marks out of 12... then did not give evidence... so went down to L2...3 marks out of 12... miserable...

' Pragmatism is looking forward and to plan in advance...'

*****************************
well that's all about my results i've got today... more to come...

her present , exam schedule

2007-05-06T18:27:00.000+08:00

hihiz everyone...

sorry for not blogging for so long...

its the exam period (30/04/07 - 11/05/07)!!! omg...

i've been happy lately...

anyways nthing much to say but something happened on friday - someone actually gave me a teddy bear...lolz... somemore, its from someone i cannot believe that she will actually give me presents.(for her: thanks again... xp) and to pl: rmb u asked me where i'd put it? well i've put it beside my pc... will see it everyday.)

*******

wells... below is the exam schedule for the week to come (applies to 4I only):

07/05

History.............................................8.00 - 9.30
A Math P2(omg)...............................10.20 - 12.30

08/05
E Math P1........................................8.00 - 10.00
Bio P2..............................................10.50 - 12.35

09/05
Chem P3..........................................8.00 - 9.15
Bio P1..............................................10.35 - 11.35

10/05
NO PAPER

11/05
Phy/Chem P1.................................8.00 - 9.00
Chinese P3 (LC).............................9.50 - 10.35

SDIP

2007-04-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

BENJAMIN LEE WENG YEW
STEPPED DOWN 20 APRIL 2007
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU
AND STEP DOWN IN PEACE...

bye VH...

will have a long break now...

hope that i will ~~not~~ see you again......

i've lost everything....my interest in singing destroyed.... my ambition crushed.... my power gone.... my hopes crushed.... everything disappeared.... lost my face.... how to see the school and mr chen like this???

let me just bleed to death....

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SYF

2007-04-20T20:55:00.000+08:00

today is syf... dun wanna say anything about it...

jus wanna say...

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forget it!!!!

SYF

2007-04-06T10:16:00.000+08:00

14 days to SYF...

got a little bit stressed man... CIO got gold...

wa..... getting our results immediately after our competition, cos we are second last choir for the slot....SH!T...

then we will stay to listen to 4-5 other choirs behind us....

tt means no need attend classes....

but still stressed...

voice a little back le... i hope i can get my voice back before monday...

next 2 weks will be very busy...

gotta stop here

cya

Bad Thursday

2007-04-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

omg... syf's in 15 days...

finished audition.... still gt a handful who did not get in...

i lost my voice...

omg!!!!!

Deep fried Oreo

2007-03-22T14:37:00.000+08:00

hello... any one of you tried deep frying oreos? my senior tried it...

try it... you can find the the recipe below:

Deep Fried Oreo Recipe

good luck xD

Pissed

2007-03-22T14:26:00.000+08:00

today i m actually very happy... but the SL comm made me so pissed... waited for the rehearsal to start from 12.30pm...(starts at 2.30pm)... and damm at 1.30, elena came to the music rm and told me that it was cancelled... i was so disappointed... making me wait for an hour just to let me know that it is cancelled... and this is what i hate the most... ppl meeting up or cancelling things at the last minute... it is just truly an act of irresponsibility and disrespect to the other ppl attending the event.To the committee i/c: Pls change the way you work things. THIS IS DISAPPOINTING!! people took the trouble to put time aside to attend this event and there you are cancelling it... thinking that you have control of our time. ppl took the trouble to cancel other activities to attend this activity, and yet...try thinking... if you are invited to attend a seminar in America, but the moment you reach there, the organizing comm say that it is cancelled, how would you feel? Pissed, disappointed?... so pls, only inform ppl of any meeting after confirming and cancel meetings at least a day in advance...

Late

2007-03-18T11:04:00.001+08:00

Hello... sorry for not blogging again... i've been busy... very busy...

its already the end of school holidays... tmr will be a fresh new term... a term less to the 'o' levels...OMG... stress, panick, pull ur hair.... brace urselves for a new term and the pressure of the coming exams...!!!

anyways... will be busy on the first week.. thursday and friday have a performance(guitar ensemble)... i've been asked to be the backstage crew... OMG!!! 6-10pm on thursday and 1-9pm on friday!!! late (To Mr Ang and other subject t'chers: i don't think i will have the time to complete ur homeworks on these days... i m sorry...xD)... the performance will be at University Cultural Centre,NUS... so far away man... but luckily ms ng agreed to bring us there and back home...how kind...
xP

well... guess its the end of this post... special thx to zw and pl for bugging me to update and to frequent this humble blog of mine... i appreciate it... seems that you two are the only ppl who frequent this blog(judging from the tags,i.e they posted the most tags...)

CHEERS!!!

Tutoring

2007-03-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

hi...next week is the last week of school...

on wednesday, my tuition t'cher asked me a shocking question. she asked me if i want to tutor her students... i agreed... $15 per lesson... little but enuf for ppl like me.

today i went for my first lesson... it was fairly ok but after my first student, the t'cher asked me tutor another one as the other tutor was held up... so i agreed again, cos at home there is nothing to do... so today i earned $30... my first hard earned $30... well not exactly hard earned but it was work... really WORK... lolz... well tmr i also have students...at 9am......so early... XD

now i know how t'chers feel waiting for students to arrive and how irritating it is to repeat things and to teach the not-so-clever ones... i was one of the bad-luked ppl who got a damn irritating and stupid tutee... haiz...

ok its late and i gtg sleep...

CNY + SCH TODAY

2007-02-26T15:02:00.000+08:00

hi again... its been a while since my last post...

today is the 9th day of CNY... any bao money like $180++ onli... very little... haiz... zw gt 1000+ frm 1 person lolz.... so rich... anyways, went to mr chen's house yesterday. quite fun... we played blackjack and tai tee there... won $2.40... hahaz.. then we played taboo... its was so damn fun lor... we were guessing like siao... stayed there till 6pm. then went home to have lunch, then packed some things and slept... xD~ so lame lor...

today in school... the usual with the noise and all loads of lame crap things... after chinese lesson, kw wrote to me and zw about some stuff... i m damn pissed... i m not going to elaborate on what it was about cos its a little private... (read my profile for a clue)... omg, they were like not considerate enuf to think about other ppl's feelings... for me and XXXXXX's. its not that i m trying to protect him/her/it, but its very inconsiderate. well anyways... i got less pissed with them and ok... i m fine now... well...

mdm loh's not here so we had relief in the canteen... there i also got pissed... so noisy lor.... ppl doing work then a few classes were making a hell lot of noise... they gt punished... serves them right... and jr was there trying to read the 'great' story kw wrote which made me pissed off....

I AM SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTROL MY TEMPER AGAIN... AND IF YOU THINK I HURT YOU BY NOT RESPONDING TO YOUR CALLS OR RAISING MY VOICE AT YOU FROM 11AM TO 12.20PM, I M TERRIBLY SORRY.. (-_-''')

Wishing ev'ryone a belated happy chinese new year.

kays gotta do my homework now... cya...

'O' LEVEL SCHEDULE AND SYLLABUS

2007-02-14T18:08:00.000+08:00

hmm... second post of the day... here's the tentative schedule......

Registration
School Candidates -- 26 Feb - 8 Mar

Oral Examination
EL -- 13 Aug - 24 Aug
CL / ML / TL -- 28 Jun - 12 Jul
CL / ML (Special Programme) -- 27 Aug - 31 Aug
CLB / MLB / TLB -- 24 Sep

Listening Comprehension
CL / ML / TL -- 16 Jul
CL / ML (Special Programme) -- 5 Nov
CLB / MLB / TLB -- 5 Nov

Practical Examination
Science -- 9 Oct - 18 Oct

Written Examination
Mid-Year CL/ML/TL Exam -- 28 May
End of Year Exam -- 10 Oct (NTIL), 17 Oct - 13 Nov

......and the syllabus...
Click here

to those taking 'O' Level this year... cheers and work hard...

Those taking 'O' Levels next year (2008), you can take a look at the tentative schedule here

Source: SEAB (Singapore Examinations and Assessment Board), 2007

Valentines Day

2007-02-14T17:58:00.000+08:00

... very quickly time has passed... its valentines day...HAPPY VALENTINES DAY everyone.

its going to be new year soon... in just 3 days... omg... then its the term 1 break... how fast.

spent from 6.45am to 5.00pm in school... that's like 11hours... almost 1/2 a day... spending the day with the choir in the afternoon... and as usual got scolded by me again... i guess the guys are going to get scolded tmr... with about 8 weeks left before SYF, they are still slacking... ms ng and mr chen and myself are very disappointed with the choir... what can i do? haiz... valentines day oso must get me so fed up...

anyways we practiced our song wif the CIO.. which was like crap... tempo all over the place... then the choir leh... sounded as if they were mute... nothing came out... i was so fed up... then the men git a 'scolding' from me...

i've got no valentine,no complete family... nothing. everyday is the same... including the imcoming CNY...

well... i think i will end here...

P.S. CHOIR MEMBERS....PLEASE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!

Stress...choir

2007-01-31T17:56:00.000+08:00

"Non-metals have weak tensile strength." Tensile strength is the ability to withstand stress or strain. maybe that's why we, as non metals, do not withstand too much stress. now... its the end of january and tmr's already february. how time flies... our classmate, gui ke will be leaving soon...wish him all the best.

anyways, class is quite boring nowadays... physics is very 'dry' now... electricity... a/e math is getting more and more interesting...... i'd wish. chemistry...got the reactivity series correct, after memorising it for 1 recess, that is, today's recess...

Please Potassium (K)
Send Sodium (Na)
Cows Calcium (Ca)
Monkeys, Magnesium (Mg)
And Aluminium (Al)
Zebras Zinc (Zn)
Into Iron (Fe)
Tian Jin Tin (Sn)
Lowland of Lead (Pb)
China with Copper (Cu)
Silver and Silver (Ag)
Gold Gold (Au)

talking about recess... i am damn fed up with the basses members of the choir. simply trying to ask for sectionals, then don't come... then let mr chen scold us... for what? its not like they did tell us that they can;t make it or what... can't they just keep to their promises and make life easier for mr chen, or the choir.... aren't they sick and tired of mr chen scolding us every single practice? what's with this attitude? the choir is always thinking of getting gold but no one just wants to work for it... how the hell will we get a gold for syf if we keep this up? (For choir members reading this: if we do not show improvement soon, i will make arrangements for additional practice.) show some respect pls... talking when mr chen is so angry, not starting warm ups even if i or any other committee member ask you to do so... what's so difficult?

dropping this subject, going to class problems. my class is simply so money minded. fancy paying $2 for assignments handed in late... when the agreement was $0.50... thats 4X the amount. what is everyone thinking about? money? studies?

this world now changing... with rude juniors and ignorant seniors in the choir, money-minded class... mass lectures held after school... piles and piles of homework... lousy family members... what for? can't every one just listen and pay attention and follow instructions? or why result only in money to solve for late assignments? or why do everyone in my family have to be so rowdy and always scream and shout at each other? why? why? why?

why? WHY??????!!!!!

sometimes, i wish to just wake up, go to school, attend choir practices or even stay at home.....IN PEACE!!! ... is what i want impossible? is it too much to ask for that? why must people make life so miserable for each other? when i am relatively good in choir... why scold me for every darn mistake? why collect $2 for every late assignment? why can't i have a peaceful family? i am already without a mother... what more... want to take away my life and my freedom??? want to take away my happiness?

what is this??? everyday you see me in school relatively happy, sometimes not, but i am just being calm... at least in school is quite peaceful... than what i call 'home'...

Why am i born to this world with such imperfection? imperfect family, imperfect life, imperfect CCA....... i just want things to go smoothly and peacefully... having a 'storm' during choir or at home isn't what i want...

ALL I want is simple.....

i want.....
peace.......
a day where there is no screaming and shouting in my home....

liveliness in my family......

is it difficult?

R.I.P - MICROSOFT INTELLI-MOUSE (2000-2007)

2007-01-14T11:40:00.000+08:00

This post is dedicated to my wireless mouse which finally is able to rest in peace today, 14/01/2007. After serving me for about 6 years, it finally left me...

Today, another mouse took over its place temporary before i get another.

Lets bow our heads and have a minute of silence......

...(1 minute later)...

Okay... lets get back to business... i m ill, having a royal flush, fever, cough and flu. very typical when i m sick... lol...yesterday while visiting my doctor, she gave me a medicine, Amoxycillin, which i was allergic to... it would make my eyes swell until it looks like it will pop up anytime. i told the doctor but she just wouldn't believe it... so after much argument, she decided that i do not take this medicine and refended me $1... then i was thinking, wth she charged me $23 in total and she refunded me only $1, that is $22 for 3 different medicine and consultation... then i felt that being a doctor isnt that bad... well at least you earn lots of money by charging high consultation fees... lol...

anyways,dunno if i can get back to school tmr... i sure hope i could...

PS. to those in 4I who viewed this post, if i did not go to school tmr, pls help me mark attendance and collect my homework... i know some people will visit me... not to say 'get well soon' but to gimme my homework.

New Year.... New life

2007-01-07T11:36:00.000+08:00

Hi. its the 1st week of school and i kinda feel wierd...

with a blink of my eye, i m already sec 4. its the O levels this year. lessons are very fast-paced. beginning tomorrow, remedials will be starting.... fast huh... then soon, the prelims, the O levels and soon results will come out and i m outta secondary life. life as you see it is not very slow, as some of you think... as a matter of fact life goes very fast... very very fast. i felt like it was only last week when i was born and now... secondary school life's ending.

here i share a quote which i found very meaningful:

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of humankind.

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of people.
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

- Bertrand Russsel

Indeed, life is always about getting new knowledge, love and also suffering. the reason to get new knowledge is to improve oneself's well-being. that's why we go school.

life without life is life a human without a heart. love is only about the normal boy-girl relationship, it is also about the love between kinship and friendship and love in yourself. friends and kins are your support in times of need. they are important in times of need, and sometimes to provide one with a helping hand and a listening ear. loving yourself is about giving the respect to your body. it is about how you treat yourself. how you treat yourself is often how people treat you. for example, you take drugs to harm your body, then the people around you will treat you the same way, they will reject you and will always be a burden to them and have the mindset that you will be a burden to them and cause them trouble.

life is also suffering. it is only through sufferings that one learn some facts of life that cannot be learnt through books and in class. some things can only be learnt only when you've been through it. for example, one would never know how a beggar feels unless you be a beggar yourself and try.

it is only through having and pursuing these three passions of life, one can say that their lives are worth living.

Good bye 2006, hello 2007

2007-01-01T10:14:00.000+08:00

weee... its 2007... 1st post of the year. wishing everyone happy new year!!!

2006 has been a busy year for me, and the choir.

for me, i had lots of projects to do, and lots of fun. i enjoyed myself.

the choir was also busy... practising for the concert, the musical, ABRSM exams and preparing for the next syf. heard that it would be held at victoria concert hall... but it was all worth it. guess what, we got a distinction in the ABRSM. syf... here we come.

got lots of smses wishing me a new year... if i waven replied, sorry and wish you a happy new year too.

now it seems that my blog is finally having some activity going on... thanks to all who tagged me and linked me...

for those who haven tagged or linked me.... do it after reading this post :P

omg school's coming in 2 days.... i dunno to look forward or to grief.

well... cya soon... probably in school.

Long Time

2006-12-17T18:21:00.000+08:00

hiiz...

its been a long time since i blogged and it seems that my blog is sooooo dead..... no visitors... :(

anyway i've been busy revamping my blog.... new skin and new interface. hope you all like it (in the first place, is there anyone who visits my blog???) well, well...

2weeks more to school re open. its not very nice rite? but still we cannot resist.... face it...

ok heres wishing every one a MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance.

Holidays?

2006-11-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

Hmm.... Come to think of it.... am i on a holiaday? 'cos i don't feel like i am having a holiday... the first week and i am so busy ( my organizer's full due to the things i have to do in teh first week ).

Having additional math extra lessons, choir practices and oh yes,not forgetting never-ending EXCO meetings and camp comm meetings, and soon, choir camp and Bintan trip.

So busy. So tired. How i hope i'd just get a break from all this events.

Now i've come to realise that being me is not easy and often, i envy people whose lives are so carefree. Haiz... T.T

Well, gotta admit it..... i am so busy....

See ya'll soon.

holidays

2006-10-27T13:19:00.000+08:00

Bwahahaha....Holidays are here.

Well....There are still some lessons held during the holidays... poor thing.

27 Oct got 3I class BBQ....Yum!

Then 8-10 Nov is the choir camp!!!!

14-17 Nov is a trip to Loola Adventure Resort, Bintan for a Student Leaders Camp... i guess i will enjoy myself.

Well, that's my upcoming schedule.... still got lots more...what bout urs????

Lastly, Happy Holidays.

ANNOUNCEMENT: PHOTOS

2006-10-27T13:17:00.000+08:00

Hiz.

Regarding the photographs, feel free to mail me, together with your name and e-mail and tell me which photograph you want. I will then send you the indicated photograph.

Thanks,
Benjamin

Results

2006-10-18T16:50:00.000+08:00

... Haiz.... my exams results are out and i am not satisfied with my results....
Did quite poorly. I am going to chiong from December onwards...all the way to the 'O's

First Post

2006-10-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

Helloz everyone....

Firstly, welcome to my blog.

Feel free to post comments.

The blog is still not complete yet, so if there is any matter regarding the site, pls feel free to e-mail me to inform me of the matter. Comments to improve this site is also recommended. Please do not send to any other of my e-mails, pls use only the above stated e-mail as it is dedicated to this site. E-mails sent to my other addresses will be considered null and void.

Thanks and enjoy.